In the library of Haiyang Medical University, the book Su Cen was holding in her hands had not turned a page for an hour, she didn’t know why after that day, the name Lan Xiaobu had been in her mind unable to fade away. Not only that, the name was becoming clearer and clearer.
She subconsciously turned back, and subconsciously, every time she came to the library, Lan Xiaobu would sit far away and watch her. Also every time she went out, when she inadvertently turned around, she could always see Blue Little Boo.
Su Cen shook her head vigorously, she knew that all of this did not exist, whether Blue Xiaobu liked her or not she was not sure, but she was sure that Blue Xiaobu had never paid so much attention to her Su Cen ah.
In her impression, Lan Xiaobu also rarely came to the library, he was too smart, a lot of things will be said at once. So whenever it came to exams when everyone else had to revise, his textbook was still brand new, and he hadn’t even flipped it open a few times. As for revision, that didn’t exist at all. The strange thing was that every time he took an exam, he was still the top of the class, and that first place scholarship was customised for him.
But the less she thought about it, the clearer Blue Boo’s shadow became. She saw herself taking the initiative to find Lan Xiaobu, taking the initiative to marry Lan Xiaobu ……
Su Cen scratched her hair hard, why. She had no love for Lan Xiaobu at all, she was just an ordinary classmate, even if Lan Xiaobu had published a paper on the way of medicine, it was impossible for her to fall in love with Lan Xiaobu, let alone take the initiative to find Lan Xiaobu to marry him. This kind of thought was too strange and incomprehensible, she, Su Cen, was not a person who thought nonsense.
Su Cen laid down on the table, she felt a little groggy in her mind.
In the dimly lit room, Su Cen seemed to hear the door creak a little. This old wooden door told Su Cen that it was Lan Xiaobu who had returned.
Su Cen struggled to open her eyes, she saw the tired Blue Little Boo walk into the house, the first thing he did was come to her side, then grabbed her wrist, seemingly sensing her pulse.
“Bu, you’re back.”Su Cen felt like she was struggling a bit with every word.
“Well, Cen Cen. I did ten surgeries today, and one of them was an official from a not-so-small origin, so it looks like the bonus at the end of this month won’t be too low. Wait, I brought medicine back for you ……”
As Lan Xiaobu spoke, he walked over to the hot water kettle and poured a cup of hot water. Then carrying the hot water, he walked over to the bedside and sat down, and then took out a box from inside his pocket, and carefully took out a light golden coloured pill from it and sent it to Su Cen’s mouth, “Cen Cen, come and eat the medicine first.”
Su Cen didn’t go to eat the medicine, she stretched out her dry and thin hand to grab Lan Xiaobu’s hand, “Xiaobu, this medicine is too expensive, my disease can’t be cured at all, let’s give up ……”
“No, Cen Cen, I can definitely cure you, you hold on for a while longer, I have recently learnt Chinese medicine from a senior who is very powerful in medicine, and I have already gained some knowledge about your illness. Believe me, eventually one day I can cure you of this disease ……”
Su Cen reached out her hand and wanted to stroke Lan Xiaobu’s hair, only her hand was weak and she couldn’t reach up at all. Lan Xiaobu squatted down some, Su Cen’s hand finally reached Lan Xiaobu’s hair.
“Your hair is all grey, you’re only less than forty, but you’re already old ……,” Su Cen’s voice was getting more and more ethereal, “Xiao Bu, remember that if there is an afterlife, don’t marry me again. Be as selfish as I am, and go find someone who loves you …… I’m sorry, Boo, I’m so tired of breathing ……”
“No, if there is an afterlife, I will marry you even more.”Lan Xiaobu held Su Cen’s hand, and his tone did not allow any half-questioning.
“Why? I ……” Su Cen didn’t say it, she knew that Lan Xiaobu understood what she meant, from the time of marriage to now, even if she is bedridden, but she has never fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu. She felt sorry for Lan Xiaobu, but there is a kind of love that can’t be given just because you want to.
Lan Xiaobu’s eyes were all soft, “Cen Cen, I’m worried that you’ll have no one to take care of you. I worry that you won’t be able to sleep well, and I’m even more worried that when you secretly cry alone at night, there’s no one to wipe your face. For so long, I have never said thank you. Thank you for being able to marry me, for marrying an ordinary person like me. I just hate that I can’t cure you and make your life happier and more joyful.”
“Xiao Bu ……” Su Cen couldn’t hold back her tears, she closed her eyes, and deep down she had already made up her mind that she would never drag Blue Xiao Bu down again, drag her husband down.
Su Cen did not know how she climbed up, she rushed out of the protective wall ……
What does the protective wall protect against? Suzen felt a slight headache.
But she soon heard Blue Boo yelling, “Why, why didn’t you guys block her?”
She knew that Lan Xiaobu was angry at the soldiers guarding the exit of the protective wall, if the soldiers could block it, she wouldn’t be able to rush out of the protective wall. But she knew better in her heart that the soldiers couldn’t possibly block her. If she was such a burden, it was better to die, at least there was no need to give her survival resources inside the protective wall.
“Heh, why should we block her?”A soldier said coldly.
“Let me out.”Lan Xiaobu calmed down, her tone carrying an extreme calmness.
“I’m sorry, Dr Lan, you can’t go out.”The guardian soldier’s tone was a little cold.
Su Cen could go out, because Su Cen’s kind of person staying inside the guard wall was just a waste of resources. Whereas, Lan Xiaobu could not go out, Lan Xiaobu was a doctor, or an extremely outstanding doctor. In this era of pollution, how important a doctor was, as long as a person knew.
Su Cen was horrified to hear Lan Xiaobu’s words, “Xiaobu, you mustn’t come out, you mustn’t ……”
Lan Xiaobu let the tears flow down, grabbed the railing at the exit, and looked at Su Cen outside the protective wall with almost desperate eyes, “Cen Cen, do you think I can live alone without you? Without you, I don’t know why I’m alive anymore.”
“Bu, I’m sorry, I have to go first ……,” Su Cen suddenly regretted a bit that she took the initiative to rush out of the protective wall, the despair in Lan Xiao Bu’s eyes made her soul tremble. At this moment, there was an extra stirring in her heart, could this be love?
Why did she keep thinking that she hadn’t fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu? Was that because she had no way out before she gambled and married Lan Xiaobu? Maybe she hadn’t fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu when she first married him. But now, she was going to lose Blue Boo, but her soul was aching, and she was worried that Blue Boo would rush out again.
“Xiao Bu ……” Su Cen wanted to say something more, only her eyelids heaved up, her hands slowly fell, and her consciousness seemed to fall into permanent darkness. She vaguely only regretted, regretted that before she died she did not say her deepest words to Lan Xiaobu, she said she was sorry not because she did not fall in love with him, but because she could not stay with him.
Being together for twenty years, that had long been more than habit, it was love.
……
“Su Cen, Su Cen ……” The violent shaking made Su Cen open her eyes.
She raised her head and saw a familiar face, and subconsciously said, “Mei Xun, what’s wrong?”
“Su Cen, why are you sleeping and still crying …… ” Zhang Mei Kaoru looked at Su Cen’s face full of tears in a stupefied manner, and said in a somewhat bewildered manner.
“Ah …… “Su Cen woke up, this is a library, just now it was just a dream scene when she fell asleep on the table, Su Cen hurriedly took out her handkerchief and wiped her face.
Zhang Mei Kaoru also woke up, “Su Cen, you can really, dreaming is so real.”
“Mei Kaoru, has Lan Xiao Bu been caught?”Su Cen suddenly wanted to see Lan Xiaobu, why were all his dreams lately?
Zhang Meixun didn’t care, Lan Xiaobu was their classmate, it was normal for Su Cen to ask.
“Didn’t catch it, really can’t see ah, Lan Xiaobu actually has such a fierce side. He is usually very shy and honest, and he is the youngest ……” Zhang Mei Kaoru sighed and said.
“Maybe there’s a special reason for that.”Su Cen subconsciously defended Lan Xiaobu.
Zhang Mei Kaoru shook her head, “No matter what the reason is, one shouldn’t do such a ruthless thing ah.”
Su Cen fell silent, she didn’t know what to say.
Zhang Mei Lavender said, “By the way, just now, it was Senior Silent Ning who invited us for dinner, and I purposely came to call you. It’s at the Tian Hai Restaurant, let’s go over together.”
It was common knowledge that Senior Silent Ning liked Su Cen. Moreover, Su Cen also had a good feeling towards Senior Silent Ning, this time she came to invite Su Cen, it was also considered to help Senior Silent Ning.
Su Cen reluctantly smiled, “I won’t go, I have some things, I’m afraid I have to leave Haiyang for a trip.”
At this moment, Su Cen wanted to go to Jiuzhou, she wanted to go to Kun Jiu Hospital to enquire about it. Without seeing Lan Xiaobu, she felt a little uneasy in her heart.
Since the last time she saw Lan Xiaobu, so many dreams and subconscious scenes, were they merely imagined by herself? She and Lan Xiaobu usually did not have much contact at all, so how could she have imagined these scenes?
